Monday, October 12, 2009


 This is by far the hardest blog post I've had to write thus far.  I have been putting it off for almost 2 weeks now... :(  I have completely fallen off of the bandwagon.  I feel like garbage!  I haven't been working out & have been eating whatever I want...

Life threw me some stressful curves and I went right back to my old, crummy ways.  I am so disappointed in myself!  I have felt sick nearly every day from making unhealthy choices, but it hasn't been enough to get my butt in gear.  I skipped my past 3 weight watcher meetings (I have no idea what I weigh), but I would most definitely not be surprised If I gained all of my weight back.  Gosh!  How could I do this to myself?!

I'm really struggling right now with life in general and I guess I just gave up and felt I was no longer worth it.  I wish I were a stronger person... I wish that I was able to find value in myself and be more positive.  My self confidence has plummeted, but I know that I can get out of this slump.. I have to.  I promised myself that I would do this, and I am going to get it done no matter what.

I am going to weigh myself tomorrow.. face the news.. & move on!

I have missed all of my blogger friends :(

Kat- you're a dear!  You made me smile for the first time today :]  Thanks for the "Honest Scrap Award"

I will share 10 things about myself tomorrow when I am a whole new, positive, upbeat, happy, confident person :]

I hope everyone is doing well!  I am super excited to catch up on all of your blogs!


  1. You can do it. Don't beat yourself up. I've been up-and-down from that wagon for a while now myself.

  2. Life happens and you move on from that. Just know how strong you are to see it, own it and take a step forward!!!

    Good on 'ya!!!!
    We're all here for you through the journey: The good the bad and the ugly!!!

  3. Hey girlie. I'm glad you're back. I was worried about you when you didn't post for awhile.

    No reason to beat yourself up over the past, just learn from it. Remember how awesome you felt about yourself when you were "on the wagon". Use that as motivation to keep up with the healthy habits. Send me a message on my blog if you want my personal email address in case you ever need to talk. I'm here for you.