Wednesday, September 23, 2009

The Reveal...

Why have I chosen to make my blog "anonymous"?  What am I so afraid of?  What are the real reasons that I do not want to disclose my identity for all the world to see?  I know the reasons.. there are hundreds.  Mainly, I am embarrassed of what I have become.  I am humiliated by the fact that I have let things get out of hand and gained all of this weight.  I am devastated when I look in the mirror.  My feelings of self worth have diminished day by day.  I am saddened that I have allowed my health to get in the way of the things I have wanted to do in life.  I regret making poor decisions & not having the self control that I so desire.  I am under the constant stress of wondering what others may or may not be thinking of me.  I am a prisoner inside my own body.

This is no way to live life.  This is not me living up to my full potential. 

I have decided to make a promise to myself that I, from this point forward am going to live my life with dignity and respect.  I am on the path to a happier, healthier life & I am going to be proud of myself.  I will be happy with my accomplishments instead of thinking of what I could have done better.  I will love myself the way that I am.  I am not defined by my appearance, but rather who I am deep down inside- you hear that all of the time, but do you actually believe it?- I am going to.

As I wrote this blog post I was crying.  At first I thought it was because of all of the pain and hurt that I have dealt with most of the years of my life.  But now I'm beginning to realize that they may be tears of joy... I'm letting it all go & moving on.

Goodnight All!


13 comments:

  1. Hello, gorgeous! No shame at all!!

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  2. Katie, you are beautiful!!! Isn't it liberating to do the big reveal?

    What a lovely post and lovely attitude.

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  3. Good for you. You have already made a change for the better. You ARE shedding your former shelf just by the choices you have made lately. You are are on the right road and worth every mile of it. Be proud of yourself!!!! Love who you are, for what you are and everything else will fall into place.

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  4. I dig the top...and the necklace. But most of all, I think you're very pretty AND TAN! I'm jealous of the tan. Love yourself...we all love you!!!

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  5. Ah you're gorgeous! Be proud of yourself and for the gift that you are giving yourself by making healthy choices!! You are beautiful lady and you gotta know it!

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  6. Good for you ! There is nothing to be ashamed of , your a beautiful lady on the road to bettering yourself .......no shame in that, in fact it is downright inspiring !

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  7. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! EMBRACE IT!

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  8. Yep, I echo what everyone has already said. You are beautiful on the inside and out. You REALLY are. Glad that you've decided to reveal. I personally find that it makes a blog more personal.

    Yay for change and moving forward.

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  9. Hello again! Bodycombat is basically cardio kickboxing. I love it! You can burn 800-1200 calories in one one-hour class; why would you even bother with anything else?! :-) This is my cardio now; I may soon check out the BodyPump as well (which is a cardio class with weight lifting).

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  10. It's true you are very beautiful on the outside but lemme tell you one thing lady, none of that counts if you can't appreciate it on the inside. And YOU are the only one who can help yourself appreciate yourself for who you are. Hold your head up high and stand proud because who you are right now is right where you need to be. You have lost 8+lbs and 8+ inches in JUST 20 days - that is HUGE! So many people are looking at you because you are inspiring them.

    Keep it up - you are doing great! :)

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  11. Hello! *waves* Nice to see you!
    It's great to finally have a face with a blog/story. :)
    Big and Beautiful! It goes together like.....well it just goes together. Healthy and happy also go together. And you're going for that too!
    Go you!

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  12. Just wanted to stop by and say congrats on the big reveal. :) Keep up the great work!

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  13. You are beautiful and you are an inspiration to me! Keep up the good work!

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